Bad Day

My heart hasn't been in to blogging lately, partly because of facebook, it's so much easier. But tonight I need to vent, and this is someplace I can do that that maybe he won't read. By "he", I mean the husband. It was another one of his horrible drunk days, his mean ass drunk days. Sometimes I wonder how I can manage to stay married to him, especially after he told me that I am stupid. This is not something new. He can often be verbally abusive when he is this drunk. Thankfully he is now passed out, (in the middle of the living room floor no less). I hate that my kids see this...but the alternative seems worse. Take them from there home and move where, with my parents? They don't have the room for us. And besides, this is my house just as much as it is his. And he is a great dad...sober. Years ago I would have been crying still, hours later after the harsh words were exchanged. Now I don't. I'm just hurt and disgusted. We'll see what happens tomorrow.....