So here are some things I have learned in my 11 1/2 years of marriage......
1-It is easier to fake an orgasm than it is to fake being happy.
2-Men can be selfish monsters.
3-Especially when they are drunk.
4-No matter how hard you work as a wife and mother, it is never enough. Don't expect a thank you unless you ask for one.
5-Especially from selfish husband.
6-Sometimes life really sucks.
7-When you have kids, you have no choice but to deal with the shitty days, put on a happy face, and still try to be a good mom.
8-Sometimes I really, really, really don't like the man I am married to.
9-I feel stupid for still loving him even when I really, really, really don't like him.
10-I know deep down that I deserve better than the shit I put up with on a regular basis.
Sorry y'all, but it was a really shitty weekend and I just had to vent. I am trying really hard to be mature with my anger and not throw all of his clothes out in the front yard and run over them with the lawn mower, (although it is soooooo tempting!), or break something of his, (he doesn't have anything worth breaking anyway, most of the stuff in the house came with me).
I just really can't get into what has got me in this mood, but it has a lot to do with the husbands drinking. And that this weekend his drinking led him to become a complete fucking asshole.
Again, I am sorry for the language. I rarely talk like that. It was even difficult for me to type. But it's how I feel, and that is what this blog is for........................
Unexpected Sacraments
7 years ago
4 comments:
Hi Hon!
I am sorry you are having such a horrible time - I know it's been challenging for you, even though I don't know all the details.
Write or call me if you need to talk - let me know if you need my number!
Love you babe, Lis xo
OH, love. I'm so sorry. I'm glad you're using this forum to vent. I think it's therapeutic.
Are you okay? Please email me if you need an ear. Marriage is hard damn work and when you add a drinking issue on top of it, it's no freakin picnic. Hang in there, sugar.
xo.
And post some of that Halloween cuteness. NEED PICS!!
annmiller71@comcast.net
Thank you both for your support. It's better, for now. It's like a roller coaster...ya just have to go with it.
Just read this...I'm sorry things are roller coaster-ish. I (sort of) know how you feel. I know that it's hard, but hang in there. Does he know how you feel about all of this? Easy to say, not so easy to talk about...huh? I understand. If you ever need an ear, I'm here too.
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